Every pregnancy is a different story. Women have done it for centuries but everybody has a different story to tell. Some are long, some are short, some are funny and some are excruciatingly painful. Through it all one thing that stands true is – every pregnancy is ordained by God. I have had four pregnancies out of which one was a miscarriage and one was unplanned.

I do intend to write about my miscarriage at some point to talk to hurting mums out there.

As much as I loved being a mother, my last pregnancy was totally unexpected in my late thirties. I had just had my feet up with moving countries and having the older kids finally wash up after themselves and follow instructions without interrupting too much.Boy was I wrong! God has a wonderful sense of humor; He decided to surprise us!!

Life was smooth until the sight of bread wanted me to throw up one fine day! Got a kit to test out. The mother in me always wanted to get pregnant but in reality it would be overwhelming. It turned out positive and one part of me wanted to scream out of happiness and one part wanted to cry out of fear! I was over eight weeks pregnant then. Telling my husband was even scarier and it wasn’t something he wanted given our circumstances. Don’t mistake me, my husband loves children but this wasn’t something he wanted to do given how busy our lives really where. But God has ordained it. My older child did notice my worried face to which I did say I am pregnant and her saying that’s the best news ever. My son always used to ask me why we couldn’t have four kids and pray about it saying Lord, give us more babies like Uncle Mark(name changed for privacy reasons) . The Lord definitely heard his prayers and a child was coming our way, just that it was unplanned.

So many of us out there are unplanned but we aren’t mistakes. We realize we aren’t in control of anything around us when we are chosen by God to walk in the path He has carved out for us.

It took over eight weeks for my pregnancy to settle into our household. It was a trying hard time with so many thoughts crossing our minds. I had two difficult pregnancies previously given my history with polycystic ovaries, gestational diabetes and blood type. I learnt to come to an understanding that if this was something the Lord has ordained to happen, I would continue to be healthy all through the nine months and she would come out easily and my pregnant life would be smooth and indeed it was. I had help throughout my previous pregnancies and never had to take public transport to work. It wasn’t the case with the third one. I walked and trained to work, did all the house work and went house hunting. Moved and setup a home at 38 weeks of pregnancy . It wasn’t easy, but through it all one thing echoed – His love never fails and never gives up on us.

I learnt to trust God with every emotion of mine and lean on Him for strength and courage. I can’t change a thing with my limited strength and ideas. But I knew trusting in the one who holds the universe in His hands will give me absolute peace and confidence in treading along this journey.

My third born arrived via c-section screaming and kicking into this world! I had the best post birth experience with my third one. I won’t trade a thing for her! She is the only one who came out looking like me! The other two look like their dad! I held her and cried. I did cry for three reasons –  she was carefully knit in my womb,  she was perfect and that were outnumbered officially!

To all of you struggling with unplanned pregnancies, you are not alone. That child will survive, your finances will be okay, you will be healthy and your husband will be fine. Bring it on and the joy of bringing another life to this earth is only something you can do!