I had my older kids in the Middle East where the maternity leave is a maximum of ten weeks. You could probably club in a few days from your annual leave and make it fourteen, but that’s about it. Going to work after having my first child was like ripping my heart out of my body. I cried for days before starting work and cried for the first few weeks at work. It was hard and scary. My helpless babe had to make it through those eight hours unscathed and perfect. Our helper at home was God Given. Any one who knew her personally would vouch for that given how amazing she was with childcare along with the million other things she was good at. After my children, she’s been another blessing I can never forget!

I survived!! I realised nothing honestly is in my hands. The child God gave me is His and He alone is able to perfect the plans He has for her!

I moved on to accepting its normal to go back to work and be happy about it and having adult conversations. The second time around it was easier. My boy was a bully and quite demanding. I was happier to go back. Hopefully he won’t read this someday.

With the third child(my unplanned gem), I sat at home for eight months. Let me tell you, those 32 weeks where the most rewarding ever. I could breastfeed her, something I couldn’t follow through with my other two children. To mamas out there who couldn’t breast feed, you are normal. You haven’t done anything wrong. Your child will be perfect even if she’s not had nutrition from you. I personally wanted to breastfeed to bond with my child and economical reasons! And viola it worked, I was booby trapped . I returned to work with mixed emotions. It helped to go back to get the money rolling and the expenses paid. It made me sad to think, I won’t ever to get to spend such long periods of time with her ever again. I know for sure she will fine. To mums out there, Your child will do fine if you have to go back to work full time. Period!

In case you are wondering what booby trapped meant..